“When we’re back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins, it doesn’t affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy,”(sic) Cobain wrote.
“The fact is, I can’t fool you, any one of you. It simply isn’t fair to you or me.
“The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I’m having 100% fun,” he continued.
“Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage.